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Strange how
a recipe is a
perfect actu-
arial tool.
It lists exactly what you are
about to do, describes what is
going to happen to the thing you
are making, and then shows you a
picture of what it will look like.
And yet...
and yet.....
And to think that
I'm the one who said
she'd make a cake for
Bruno's birthday.
Is this really the life i want?
An office job with no real
desire or room for movement.
Two lovers... and yet, how committed
are they? Like Carl who decided that
he was more committed to moving to
Wisconsin, or Bruno who just decided
she wasn't invested at all...
Are Robert and Carey engaged enough
that they would want to eventually form
a community, to possibly stick in together,
the three or more of us? Is commitment even
possible in Polyamorous relationships?
I've seen it, but do i believe it for my own
life? or will I eventually become single,
old, undesirable, and terribly lonely.
I mean, it's all so
lovely right now. I love
them both so much, and
I really enjoy my job...
Ah well, my career
and my life are all
about computing
the future, and yet
I refuse to live my
life in anything
but the present.
How proscriptively ironic.
The Bee hive The burnside Bean
I don't know, Dije.
I've just been feeling
a bit unsure about life.
Funny, how I'm usually
so confident that, right
or wrong, it's the path
that's meant to be.
The best of
all possible
worlds.
Well, my life hasn't
been quite as cruel to
me as that Panglossian
sentiment implies.
My dear Sophia, per-
haps you simply haven't
had the courage yet to
leave your westphalian
kingdom of Baron
Thunder-ten-tronckh.
Nor had my
buttocks cut off.
Voltaire Candide
I don't know what I could
possibly say that'd be helpful,
Sophia. Hell, I've been single
and depressed for years now,
I haven't a fucking clue.
I know, Dije. I wonder
sometimes if that's why
Bruno's been such a
breath of fresh air to us.
Because she openly
mocks me for being
such a clueless idiot?
Well, I was thinking because,
compared to us, she's so utterly
lost and actively searching that
she makes us feel superior as
well as entranced by her quest.
But yeah, her making fun of you
is pretty entertaining too.
Sophia. Hell, I've been single
It's strange....
Sophia.
Hm.
Strange... We've had sex, you
and I. And as well, I... well, i
love you. you've been probably
the closest and most enduring
person in my entire life.
And I love you too, Dije. I wish some-
times we hung out more one-on-one
like this, it's one of the few times we
get to really see each other without
the sparring getting in the way.
Sometimes, when I'm lonely, i wish
i was attracted to women. For you.
Although I suspect that i wouldn't desire
being part of your polyamorous crew.
No, i don't think you would.
Plus, you simply like dick.
Though I barely recall the resemblances of
that glorious pillar, what with being single
plus the pounds I've put on. My butt used to
be a desirable thing, you know, rather than
simply my personal mountainous seat cushion.
oh trust me, cutie, I do recall. but you've just
become sexy in a more solid, manly way. You
simply have to find your confidence again.
And a cute boy
who's worth a damn.
Well, that too.
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