8/5/02 - Made it back safe and sound from the San Diego Comic-Con, but I'm exhausted, I'll try to compile this week info and tales of my trip.
8/7/02 - Okay, so I'm back and caught up on my sleep and now I'm working my butt off on a freelance job, which will be an immense struggle to get done, but that is due on the 15th at the very latest. So yes, shortly after that (and likely not sooner) i fully intend to give a full account of my trip and the con and link to a zillion things which you'll all find terribly amazing I'm sure. Sorry the delay, have to prioritize here.
8/15/02 - You can tell how sillily tired I am, I'm posting a vertical strip when in the books it'd be up against a horizontal strip. For some reason i guess I though (hoped?) tomorrow was Friday. Ah well. to bed for now.
Oh, but on the bright side, the comic-con has passed and tonight I just finished that monster freelance job I've been moaning about. Just a job and bruno and lots of plans for R&R for the rest of the summer (plus finish my novel and complete a submission package for the new strip I'm working on, visit from mom, wedding in Seattle, maybe define pi).
8/16/02 - So anyways.... so as i mentioned before, i realized that I accidentally put a verticle strip side-by-side with a horizontal strip, which wouldn't conform the the printed book format, and so the strip I'm posting today switches with the shower one yesterday. But since I decided to do this, I decided i had one more thing to say along with the Louis/bruno interaction from earlier this week, and so this strip now makes not a lot of sense having the shower in-between, but such is sleepy mistakes and their sleepy repairs. In the archive and in the books it'll all be in order that makes the more sense.
8/19/02 - Sorry the delay in today's strip. I actually, for the first time in a while, had a bunch of free time this weekend. Funny that how when I'm busy to the point of frenzy i make sure and get everything done, but when slack time appears, it all falls apart.
anyhow, Dije and Bruno're at a cafe in goose hollow (neighborhood of Portland) which again i forgot to write down the name of, and it's not in the phone book. The Ferfenbacher Haus or something. On 19th right near the max.
I'll be away until wednesday, but there will be strip every day.
8/22/02 - Made it back from a nice few days away on vacation, and now I'm back, refreshed, fairly cheery. My mom's out to visit, so I get to show her around. All good.
And many thanks to Charlie, who informed me that the GooseHollow cafe I couldn't remember the name of is the "Fehrenbacher Hof" named after Sigrid, who's the late wife of ex-mayor and flasher Bud Clark. I guess Charlie used to play classical music with "Sigi" back in high school and after.
8/24/02 - So, Friday I got an email saying "Your attack on Pres. Bush says a lot about you. I will no longer read your stuff. Why are liberals so mean spirited. Stick your head back in
the sand." And I know stuff like that is light compared to what I could have gotten for calling our president a "Mother Fucking Asshole", but at the same time.... it's weird. I mean I simply don't want to be a political strip. I hate politics, I've only ever fully liked about three politicians in my entire life. Democrats are scoundrels, and somehow Republicans seem worse. And yes, I believe what I said about Bush, and I think Bruno would too, likely even more-so. And so I must expect responses like this. And that's fine, it's done.
And it's easy to say, "who needs this jerk who emailed me" but the truth is that if I just said that all the time and just was as offensive and edgy and rated "R" as possible, eventually I'd only be "preaching to the converted". A huge goal I have here is to talk about life, and ways of thinking about it, about who we are and what we do and why. And with any luck, either provide comfort and solace to those who think similarly and feel alone, but also to maybe have people THINK about these things. I don't want to give any answers, just more questions.
But I feel the need to as honestly as i can also tell the story of this struggling and confused young woman. Where's the balance? Bruno would feel this way about Bush and Smith, and I can't avoid saying it. Just as I seem to have ticked off lots and lots of people with the stripping thread. I cannot drop this thread. She would do this. She's obviously very curious about the idea, destructive or not, she's not been able to let it go. Even during her "not going to strip anymore" time, she still thought and talked about viewing women's bodies, she kept up her exercise training (running). She's said she judges the profession, and thus wants to judge herself at least as much. There were about a million clues and hints.
Again, I have no idea on firm set ideas on the moralities of this or most subjects. I simply know that we're taught to judge it. And I want to investigate it. But it has made a decent amount of people unhappy and I seem to just be floundering and failing in trying to discuss it in email or on the bulletin board. Maybe I'm wrong. I have no idea.
And I don't intend for any of you to write me how I've been actually hitting it on the head in a good way, nor to tell people to stop criticising me. It's simply to say I'm confused and discouraged. Maybe I should just avoid the bulletin boards for a bit. But either way, I will not stop. I'll do my best to tell this story of Bruno's life, and I'll offend all of you and wreck everything I've built up before I back down from what i think I should do with the strip. At the same time, a huge part of this strip, as with any art form, is entertainment. So I hope in my crazy tales that I spin, and thoughts I trip over, that it only gets better, and for those of you who love Bruno, that you only enjoy it more and more.
8/27/02 - Okay, so a few people asked how I manged to have source photo's from Mary's club in Portland, especially from the dressing room. The truth is, I simply asked. Vicki, who runs the place, was really sweet and answered a ton of questions for me (although I already have a ton more) and allowed me to come before the club opened to take pictures.
On other notes, regarding my Saturday's rant, I am feeling better (and thank you for all who wrote me, you're all supahkewl). But yeah, I guess I've said before, I like to use this "dairy" section to talk about things regarding creating the strip. Be it standing late at night drawing a bar from outside the window, or feeling insecure because I really want to get a story right, and doubting myself all the more from some negative (only ever a few) responses I get. It's part of the process. And if I was strong and stable enough to ignore it, I probably wouldn't be able to draw the strip. :)
8/30/02 - Speaking of linking, I haven't linked directly in my notes here for a while to the bulletin board. Lots o' discussion been happening, it's a good group, some interesting stuff, worth checking out.